I am writing this blog since last few days but couldn't publish because of some urgent appointment with someone...it was very very urgent... where everything was in white sheets... again the same place.
Thousands of miles apart, Yet he was only one who cared to know how her day went..
Now I'm ready to become one of the stars... I have such a hard headache... again... Everyday I have those shitty headaches.
Jana I was searching for all the reasons to make you smile, but unknowingly I was loosing all my reasons to laugh...
I'm not okay today, I don't know whether I'll be all right tomorrow, but yeah someday I'll be fine.
I used to care so much, I use to fight for this, I tried my hardest to hold on and keep you but you didn't want this as much as I did. I didn't lose you. Let's be honest babe, you lost me.
I'm forgiving you, once again without your apology. Now I'll never say that I need you but yeah its true that I need you the most, now I'll never say that I love you but the fact is I still I love you & care for you more then everyone and more then everything. There is still a hope deep down my heart that I see you at my last breath because you are the silent beach to my stormy sea. There was a promise that I'll love you till my last breath and that will always be alive, I'm the person of promises because that is in my blood and you'll never find another me.
You left me while it was dark for me, I'm never gonna forget this and you also shouldn't forget this. Thank you for realising me that in our life we meet some people who teach us some great lessons, who make us strong and nothing is real or permanent. Do you know now I can't trust anyone blindly because at some point of time they'll prove us blind. But yeah next time also I'll love hard because that's my blood... my character... that's me and now I know it very closely that how it feels to be loved half and to be left in between.
Now whatever you are doing that's not love babe that's just an idea of him & attraction nothing more than this from your side because I've read it in your eyes & in your thoughts & I know you this much, that was the time & situation in which you started feeling lonely & guilty of what you did so in that situation & time of loneliness you didn't want to feel that and at that same time you find a shadow of mine in him & you fell in love with that shadow of mine. Now also you love me that much deep down in your heart & you are still searching for me in him and I can promise you'll search for me in every person this is the power of affection which attraction can't have. A year ago you fell in love with Sultan Shahi because you find in him a lot of my qualities and a complete shadow of mine, voice, bday, nature, way of talking, caring, love, nice human being a complete shadow... So you fell in love with that shadow because that was nearly a carbon copy of mine. Now your ego is what stops your soul from attaching the one it connects with the most. You'll regret this when he'll use you and kick your ass. He's gonna punch you on your face.
"हमारी एहमियत समझ आएगी तुम्हे हमारे जाने के बाद। "
अब से २ चीजें तुम्हे मेरी याद हमेशा दिलायेंगी
जब भी कभी बारिश आयेगी तुम्हे मेरी याद दिलायेगी, खासकर
अब से जब भी कभी तुम आसमान में तारे देखोगी वो तारे हमेशा तुम्हें मेरी बहुत याद दिलायेंगे ।
"Babe Your VOICE is the most addictive sound to my heart its so special to my ears...and whenever I hear your voice I always think "what a beautiful song I am" ...and everytime I wonder how something so simple leave room for a great thrill in my soul."
कभी गाना मत छोड़ना किसी और के लिए नहीं, तो अपने सबसे पहले, सबसे पुराने और अपने सबसे बड़े फैन के लिए हमेशा कुछ न कुछ तो जरूर गाना।
एक आखिरी बार तुम्हारी आवाज़ में... तुम्हारे दिल से निकली आवाज़ में इक गाना सुनना चाहता था -
"जब तुम होते हो - रुस्तम"
अब शायद बहुत देर हो चुकी है इस तसवीर के लिए , सच्चाई तो यह है कि तुमने कभी दिल से चाहा ही नहीं।
वरना यह तसवीर आज कुछ और ही कह रही होती।
Varshu you'll come across two kinds of men in your life, the first will love you and the other will inspire you.... I wish, you find these both qualities in a single person,.. who would be your soulmate..your other half...your life partner.
I wish you a lot of love and a beautiful life ahead. I'm sending you love. ~ Subh
#There are some links in this blog click on highlighted text some songs are attached.
Thousands of miles apart, Yet he was only one who cared to know how her day went..
Now I'm ready to become one of the stars... I have such a hard headache... again... Everyday I have those shitty headaches.
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| We sometimes think we want to disappear, but all we really want is to be found. |
Jana I was searching for all the reasons to make you smile, but unknowingly I was loosing all my reasons to laugh...
I'm not okay today, I don't know whether I'll be all right tomorrow, but yeah someday I'll be fine.
I used to care so much, I use to fight for this, I tried my hardest to hold on and keep you but you didn't want this as much as I did. I didn't lose you. Let's be honest babe, you lost me.
I'm forgiving you, once again without your apology. Now I'll never say that I need you but yeah its true that I need you the most, now I'll never say that I love you but the fact is I still I love you & care for you more then everyone and more then everything. There is still a hope deep down my heart that I see you at my last breath because you are the silent beach to my stormy sea. There was a promise that I'll love you till my last breath and that will always be alive, I'm the person of promises because that is in my blood and you'll never find another me.
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| Ted |
You left me while it was dark for me, I'm never gonna forget this and you also shouldn't forget this. Thank you for realising me that in our life we meet some people who teach us some great lessons, who make us strong and nothing is real or permanent. Do you know now I can't trust anyone blindly because at some point of time they'll prove us blind. But yeah next time also I'll love hard because that's my blood... my character... that's me and now I know it very closely that how it feels to be loved half and to be left in between.
Now whatever you are doing that's not love babe that's just an idea of him & attraction nothing more than this from your side because I've read it in your eyes & in your thoughts & I know you this much, that was the time & situation in which you started feeling lonely & guilty of what you did so in that situation & time of loneliness you didn't want to feel that and at that same time you find a shadow of mine in him & you fell in love with that shadow of mine. Now also you love me that much deep down in your heart & you are still searching for me in him and I can promise you'll search for me in every person this is the power of affection which attraction can't have. A year ago you fell in love with Sultan Shahi because you find in him a lot of my qualities and a complete shadow of mine, voice, bday, nature, way of talking, caring, love, nice human being a complete shadow... So you fell in love with that shadow because that was nearly a carbon copy of mine. Now your ego is what stops your soul from attaching the one it connects with the most. You'll regret this when he'll use you and kick your ass. He's gonna punch you on your face.
Babe ek baat bolna chahta hu ki tumhe sab kuchh bahut achhi tarah se pata tha or abhi bhi pata hai ki tum kya kr rahi ho or kya kr rahi thi or uske kya consequences mtlb results honge lekin tumne ek bar ke liye bhi apna conscience use nahi kia. You exactly knew what you were doing & that's what hurts me most.
When you damn decided to kill me you should point the gun to my head, but you choose to back stab me mercilessly, it's just like a torturous killing, it's torturing me since last 6 months & killing me with every breath i'm taking. That was the worst anyone can do. Main dil se ek baat bolna chahta hun ki Tumhe mere sath aesa nahi karna chahiye tha meri jaan. You damaged & completely destroyed an innocent person. I really don't know tum kab se mujhe cheat kr rahi thi, you took full advantage of my forgiveness and freedom. You even didn't think for a second that....
I was the person who hold your hand when you were down and since than I was inspiring you, supporting you for everything whether you're falling from hights or its dark and I always tried to build you.... and what all you did... you damaged and destroyed me, even everything. Honey do you know what is the greatest loss in life... Death?.. No, babe the greatest loss is what dies inside us while we are alive, and that is my loss. I know you'll not understand this. Babe it's more dangerous to weep inside your mind than to weep in the open because the open tears can be easily wiped away, but secret tears create scars.
I find it sad how completely okay someone can be knowing they destroy another human being & went in another relationship happily.You probably have no idea how much this is hurting me. You really don't care do you? I hate that I even let myself care for a split second. #IhateitIloveyou.
Betu you couldn't understand my simple heart. Tum apne birthday tak bhi intjaar nahi kar paai. I could read your thoughts. You are so desperate. You destroyed every single hope.
I bowed before God for you, when I was the one who needed prayers. I let you hold on to me, when I myself was shattered into pieces. I kissed your scars, when my own wounds were bleeding. And, still it wasn't all enough for you. Why you did all this to me babe? Now I don't have much time but I'll fight.
I was the person who hold your hand when you were down and since than I was inspiring you, supporting you for everything whether you're falling from hights or its dark and I always tried to build you.... and what all you did... you damaged and destroyed me, even everything. Honey do you know what is the greatest loss in life... Death?.. No, babe the greatest loss is what dies inside us while we are alive, and that is my loss. I know you'll not understand this. Babe it's more dangerous to weep inside your mind than to weep in the open because the open tears can be easily wiped away, but secret tears create scars.
I find it sad how completely okay someone can be knowing they destroy another human being & went in another relationship happily.You probably have no idea how much this is hurting me. You really don't care do you? I hate that I even let myself care for a split second. #IhateitIloveyou.
Betu you couldn't understand my simple heart. Tum apne birthday tak bhi intjaar nahi kar paai. I could read your thoughts. You are so desperate. You destroyed every single hope.
I bowed before God for you, when I was the one who needed prayers. I let you hold on to me, when I myself was shattered into pieces. I kissed your scars, when my own wounds were bleeding. And, still it wasn't all enough for you. Why you did all this to me babe? Now I don't have much time but I'll fight.
Babu tum mujhse to maafi nahi maang paai, ab khud ko kis tarah maaf kar paogi for the things you did with me. Pagli now I'm no longer in need of your arms & those chest hugs, and those forehead well being kisses and of your prayers, for what I asked you a long time ago now it's very late.
Varshu do you ever wake up with this feeling that the world is drifting away from you, and you can't quite get a grip on what you should do next, what the meaning of all this is, and whether the universe is real or just a virtual myth? No?.... I did. Is this also happen with you that you are listening some songs and tears roll down your cheeks itself... No? Hmmm main samajh sakta hun.
Babe you will always be the story that I'll recite with a smile on my lips, an ache in my heart and a shiver through my soul. Babygirl sometimes I wish I could pull out my heart and place it into your palms to let you know how heavy it is with my love & care for you.
Well maybe we'll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic or in another era, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. But right now, I'm chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.
Pagli I loved you for who you were.. the natural you...the innocent you.... for your those beautiful small eyes... (Tere Naina)... for those green moles on your left chin and right upper lip... for your caresses... I loved your flaws... for your moment of weakness... for your moment of despair... I loved you for how you look at me...for the way you usually shy to my naughtiness..... the way you smile at me...for your those surprised reactions... for your that openly laugh.. for the way you tease me... specially after drink... I loved you for the way you couldn't say "no" to me... I loved you for a thousand more reasons.... simply... I love you..
I hope one day you will realize I did truly care for you. I promise you, you will miss me being there, putting up with you, and refusing to give up on you. You’re going to regret everything you’ve done to me, including all the damage you caused. Some day, you’ll look back and wish things could be different.
Do you know babe which type of love we created and lived? The type of love that can inspire others to love again or love stronger, is the type of love we build.
Meri paglii If the first one person you wanna tell good news to, and the last person you wanna see before you go to bed, and the first one person who comes in your mind when its dark and tough situations,when you are down & feeling all alone, and the only person you wanna spend the last day of your life with..... If answer of these all questions is me (Subh) then Babu you are in deep true love with me..& you can't hide yourself from this and if you are choosing something else then you are running from yourself, you are lying to your soul... that's called affection... a soul connection...that's what called true feelings... that's very rare these days.
"I know I probably do not cross your mind much anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back."
One day you will realise I'm the one who's always been there for you.
"Out of everything you'll miss being my everything....being my universe most."
Varshu do you ever wake up with this feeling that the world is drifting away from you, and you can't quite get a grip on what you should do next, what the meaning of all this is, and whether the universe is real or just a virtual myth? No?.... I did. Is this also happen with you that you are listening some songs and tears roll down your cheeks itself... No? Hmmm main samajh sakta hun.
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| Kuchh is tarah. |
Well maybe we'll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic or in another era, and I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. But right now, I'm chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.
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| Subh |
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| I'm the light of your dark sides. |
Do you know babe which type of love we created and lived? The type of love that can inspire others to love again or love stronger, is the type of love we build.
Meri paglii If the first one person you wanna tell good news to, and the last person you wanna see before you go to bed, and the first one person who comes in your mind when its dark and tough situations,when you are down & feeling all alone, and the only person you wanna spend the last day of your life with..... If answer of these all questions is me (Subh) then Babu you are in deep true love with me..& you can't hide yourself from this and if you are choosing something else then you are running from yourself, you are lying to your soul... that's called affection... a soul connection...that's what called true feelings... that's very rare these days.
"I know I probably do not cross your mind much anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back."
One day you will realise I'm the one who's always been there for you.
"Out of everything you'll miss being my everything....being my universe most."
"हमारी एहमियत समझ आएगी तुम्हे हमारे जाने के बाद। "
अब से २ चीजें तुम्हे मेरी याद हमेशा दिलायेंगी
जब भी कभी बारिश आयेगी तुम्हे मेरी याद दिलायेगी, खासकर
अब से जब भी कभी तुम आसमान में तारे देखोगी वो तारे हमेशा तुम्हें मेरी बहुत याद दिलायेंगे ।
"Babe Your VOICE is the most addictive sound to my heart its so special to my ears...and whenever I hear your voice I always think "what a beautiful song I am" ...and everytime I wonder how something so simple leave room for a great thrill in my soul."
कभी गाना मत छोड़ना किसी और के लिए नहीं, तो अपने सबसे पहले, सबसे पुराने और अपने सबसे बड़े फैन के लिए हमेशा कुछ न कुछ तो जरूर गाना।
एक आखिरी बार तुम्हारी आवाज़ में... तुम्हारे दिल से निकली आवाज़ में इक गाना सुनना चाहता था -
"जब तुम होते हो - रुस्तम"
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| If you really feel sorry you've to change your behaviour. |
अब शायद बहुत देर हो चुकी है इस तसवीर के लिए , सच्चाई तो यह है कि तुमने कभी दिल से चाहा ही नहीं।
वरना यह तसवीर आज कुछ और ही कह रही होती।
Varshu you'll come across two kinds of men in your life, the first will love you and the other will inspire you.... I wish, you find these both qualities in a single person,.. who would be your soulmate..your other half...your life partner.
I wish you a lot of love and a beautiful life ahead. I'm sending you love. ~ Subh
#There are some links in this blog click on highlighted text some songs are attached.
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